My cup is full

Ryan has commented on my pictureless posts in the past and tells me that people want pictures, but this post is from the heart and I hope that you smile after reading this. I have been filled with so much graditude these past two months and my heart is full. I feel so much love from my family and friends that I just want to smile. Every day I wake up next to the love of my life... He is my rock and my better half. Ryan has been such a helpful husband, dad, friend, and so much more... I am so grateful for all the love that he has in his heart. He continues to impress me every single day...like suprising me with beautiful flowers before our special date, getting up with Connor in the middle of the night, and helping me with chores around the house. I know the man upstairs picked out Ryan just for me... he allowed our paths to cross and I found my soulmate. Gosh I'm the luckiest girl in the world!... Seriously. And now I am a mom.... It still feels like I am in a dream and I don't ever want to wake up... My life changed on September 6th and the man upstairs blessed me and Ryan with an angel. I'm sure I have written about my graditude in the past for these amazing people in my life, but I just want everyone to know how truly special they are. My little Connor now weighs 10lbs and growing every second. When he looks in our eyes, I see love and the beautiful miracle that we created. It is the coolest feeling in the world!... We love him sooo much! We couldn't imagine our lives without him. Our families and friends have been so generous and thoughtful. I can't go into detail with all of our helpful family members, but I will mention a few. Janine (Ry's mom) took a week off work to help me with Connor when I was on Maternity leave and I really enjoyed our little chats :) My mom came over and held my sweet boy while I documented milestones in his Baby Book. Aunt Lyn flew in from Dallas and was here for over 3 weeks to help me with our little guy. While Ry was walking through the woods hunting his elk, Lyn stayed with me. Our family is so fortunate to have so many wonderful people in our lives... Thank you for always thinking of us and continuing to make us feel special.

When I was teenager, I lacked confidence and self esteem... I know it was a result from some instances in my past... I never thought I would marry my prince and live happily ever after. I didn't think I deserved to be happy and have life's blessings. I know you think I am crazy... I remember my family telling me that I deserved to have the good things in life. I am now in a completely dfferent place in my life and I know that God loves me. I wake up every day and look at my amazing husband and our sweet little guy. I am so thankful to be surrounded by a loving family and good friends.